anime,Full Moon on now!: poem

All i ever wanted - poem by randee

Sun, 07 May 2006 19:09:00 GMT

All i ever wanted, by randee

All i ever wanted is to talk to you

did i ever ask for anything more

more than just to have a conversation

just words, or just stroks on a keybord

All i ever wanted is to say hi

did i ever ask for a kiss

one of the most basic of demands

just a moment on intamisy

All i ever wanted is to have a smile

did i ever ask for you to pose for me

to show me whats below your neck

just like so meny other men would ask.

All i ever wanted is to have some attention

did i ever ask that you go out of your way

to show me that you caired when we spoke

just like so meny give and take relationships

All i ever wanted is to have you

i guess this is a big demant

to show me that you wanted me too

but did i ever ask you to go against your consus

just like so meny others that want more

All i ever wanted is to say I love you

Something easy as all you do is to listnen

but all i ask is you to be their to listen

just like so meny others in relationship

Their is something wrong with what we have

never to have kissed

never to have exspirianced more than a jpg img

never to have seen a smile

never to have resently herd you say thos 3 words to me.

And never to of had more than just a computer screen to love you

I thought at first what we had was a joke

An internet relationship

how could anyone love through a computer.

I was wrong and now it hurts deeply

I want to say sorry but you are not their for me to say that

All i ever wanted is to talk to you

that was then

and is now

but now i want more

just like so meny others that are in love.

,randee

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vidoday

poka scene from the film 40 yr old virgin. When the friends finaly find out he is a virgin loll

hallarious! [click here] if link fails

poem: self will or lack of

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 01:09:58 GMT

I sit here unable to move
Unable to think
Unable to do

I sit her and freeze
With little emotion
With little reaction

I try to move
But something prevents me
And something binds me

My will is held
Unable to brake free
Unable to be free

I talk about my self will
Something that refuses to obay me
And refuses to be controlled

There is something about me
That make me, me
That make me, a fool

My inability to control my self
And to do, what I should do
And to see, what I should create

I sit here frozen
Unable to move
And unable to succeed

Forever failing
Forever falling
Forever Dreaming
But never doing.
,randee

did anyone notice the table up above it is the page views. I was bord so desided to add it lol

dont you ever think to your self

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 12:14:13 GMT

rate my poem plz

Don’t you ever thing to your self

That I’m happy without you

While you hurt me

While you showed me the door

Don’t you think to your self

That I couldn’t return

I know your life

I know your pain

But their is one problem

You would not let me in.

I tried to help you

I tried to lend my hand

But don’t you think to your self

That I still could not be your support

While the last few months

It seem like the end

I could not be their for you

during the week

and during the week end

you never seemed around

so it seemed

it was the last round

but don’t you ever think to your self

that I could not be found

a simple message to me and i would be round

Now I’m entering the new period

Without you by my side

I don’t know how to say this

I have not been my self

pondering and thinking what happened

I’m still at a loss

I still wonder even after a month

how could I of done something different

to make the past change

instead of you not talking to me

instead of all this pain

all I wanted

is to be with you

I don’t even mind if it has to be

just friends for a time

but don’t you EVER thing to your self

even after all this

that I could not love you

like I have always don

,randee

a random comment

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 21:06:55 GMT

i would like to thank all 2006 ppl who visited my space ^^ (3500 views in total have been made of all individual pages on my space, i like to menton that 2 lol)

the followin wos a comment i trid to make but for some reason every time i try to comment somewere i fail like life

anyways i post it ere and a link 2 that blog

http://spaces.msn.com/totalrocka/blog/cns!DC4EDAE9CE55A9FC!1562.entry

you make interestin readin

about ya dreamin

and of ya feelin

but wot about the poems

at least ya see hope

as if some ray of light

throu the pitch of darkness

all i see is dark

have don so for many a year

as if that is all i c

as if thats all i no

all i see is dark

i hope ya good fortune

and any dreams ya prosper

as for thous of us who cant

prosper in the dark

we still wish ya are harts

that you brake the seals of dark

that seems to bind the rest

to shair that hope

to go to a place of hope

for that brings us light

light that one day we too

may brake that seal

that seal of dark

and to prosper also

and enjoy fun

as that person c's life

evan thou in reality

it is not

it is dark

like the life i have alway known

,randee

sorry if thats difficult to understand i only make poems on impuls and i wos impulsed to do so now

if i told ya i still loved ya, would ya have me bk

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 23:01:29 GMT

poem by randee, and is my feelins so dont abuse it by takin it (unless ya ask)

if i told ya i still loved ya

would you have me bk

if i told ya i missed ya

would you miss me bk

if i told ya i still needed ya

would you need me bk

if i told ya i been loanly without ya

would you say ya been loanly bk

would it be rong to wont ya bk

would ya be angary for wontin ya

would ya be happy for lovin ya

or would ya think i be stalkin ya

would ya talk to me

if i contact ya

would ya corispond to me

if i rite to ya

would ya accept me

if i give a gift to ya

would you love me

if i love ya

or would ya block me

dispite lovin ya

,randee

(made in 2 mins so ya no i wosnt thinkin, just lettin my heart do the talkin)

now for the second part or this blog

Ive been watchin alot of anime lately, online episodes that i have found

they include,

2 ep of Ai Yori Aoshi similar to love hina

one episode of Air,

1 episode of Cowboy Bebop

few episodes of DNAngel,

several episodes of Gunslinger Girl

final fantasy VII: last order
,

love hina (ive seen all the original +2 specals)

3 episodes of LOVELESS

the stars are out of 5 to show how much i liked it (loveless is too lets say gay! but i still watch iti in the hope the boy falls for the girl that loves him... so i can say anime is all ok.... lol not ganna happn but it has 2)

last night

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 17:28:54 GMT

i lurnt somethin last night

poem by randee(copyrights)

i lurnt somethin last night

that im depressed

that im glum

she asked me y

i said im sad

and that im lonly

i lurnt somethin last night

that im disliked

that im h8ted

she asked me y

i said im no head man

and that im no musle man

i lurnt somethin last night

that im a dreamer

lost in that world

she asked me y

i said i prefer that world

and that this one sucked

i lurned somethhi last night

that im counsumed by my dreams

lost in thought and feeling

she asked me y

i said i cant cope with this world

and that wot ever i do makes me sad

i lurned somethin last night

that people hait me

no one love me

she aske me y

i said my gf left

my famly dispise me

the world around me conspirers against me

she told me this last night

that you are not a h8ted

and that u r not disliked

i asked how

she said, you are a very desent man

and that many like u includin me

she told me this last night

that your dreams consume you

untill you brake free from the dream world

you would not live the real world

i asked how

she said to look at the dream

as it is, just a dream

and to aspire to better your self

she told me this last night

that you are not a failier

and that you you only have to comprehend

the world not being as perfect as in ya dreams

i asked how

she said you have made it this far (yr2 uni)

you have made a good peroson of ya self

and that you should live ya life without thinkin ahead

and to just remember this isnt a dream

she told me this last night

that most of all you need love

be it family or relationship

i asked how

you have to move on

and find anothr girl

one who is perfect for u

and will love you for who you are

i told her last night

my world is filled with disapointment

dispair

but to find another like the last

would be near imposible

and now i dont beleave that a long distance relationship

could ever be more than that

a long distance relationship

were all they have to do is press block

and u are left powerless to stop them

but i have not given up hope of finding someone

possably evan have her bk if i can accept it

i will live on

i will try to be strong

thnks to this girl

this girl thats called bubbles

Randee (thnks to bubbles for the convo last night)

( the last 2 lines of that poem were enspired rimes from a previous poem "about this girl called metty")